And then sometimes at night when I'm lying awake, it hits me: there's still so many books I still have to read, so many movies I have to watch, so many songs I still have to listen to, so many people I still have to meet, so many things I still have to experience and I'm so young and there's just not enough time to do everything I have to and want to do. The thought of living life with so much left to do is suffocating and overwhelming.